A Letter from Heaven

Sharon Jaynes writes in Girlfriends In God about how she struggled for three months after her miscarriage with feelings of grief. One day, she heard God speak to her heart a letter from her unborn child and that's what I want to share with you now.

Dear Mommy,

I asked Jesus if it would be all right for me to write you a letter. He said it would be OK.

First of all, I want to thank you for loving me and giving me life. I remember how happy you and daddy were when you found out that you were going to have me. I remember how you prayed that I would come to know Christ at an early age. I remember how you prayed that I would have a mission in life to help others.

Mom, I know that you and dad were sad when God decided to take me to heaven before I was born. I saw the tears that you cried. But Mom, what I wanted to tell you is this: Your prayers were answered. I am healthy. I am strong. I do know Christ, and He lets me sit on His lap every day. And mom, I do have a mission. Everyday new babies come to heaven who were never born. Many of them never knew the love of a mother or father. When they come to heaven, they always ask the same question; 'Baby Jaynes, tell me, what was it like to have the love of a mother?' And I can tell them. Oh, how I can tell them.

Thank you, mom, for loving me. I know you miss me. But one day we will be together and what a time we will have. Until then, imagine me happy and whole, playing at the feet of Jesus, and telling other babies about what it feels like to have a mommy that loves them.

See you soon,

Baby Jaynes

This too shall pass

For anyone who is struggling, this poem really helped me when I struggled with grief after my miscarriage.

THIS TOO SHALL PASS

If I can endure for this minute Whatever is happening to me,No matter how heavy my heart is Or how dark the moment may be ...

If I can remain calm and quiet With all the world crashing about me,Secure in the knowledge God loves me When everyone else seems to doubt me ...

If I can but keep on believing What I know in my heart to be true,That darkness will fade with the morning And that "this will pass away, too!" ...

Then nothing in life can defeat me For as long as this knowledge remains I can suffer whatever is happening For I know God will break all the chains That are binding me tight in "the darkness"And trying to fill me with fear ...For there is "no night without dawning"And I know that "my morning" is near.
~ Helen Steiner Rice ~

A Poem to Share

JESUS, IS HE WITH YOU?
Jesus is he with you?
I wonder every day
I sit and wonder why he's gone
And why he could not stay

Every part of me is empty
I feel I can't go on
But when I look to heaven
I hear this beautiful song

Mommy I am with him
He holds me in his arms
When every I am with him
He keeps me safe and warm

He says you shouldn't worry
I am safe and loved right here
With all the other baby angels
That passed within the years

We have a special place up here
He thought that you should know
Where the Blessed Mother takes your place
For now until you show

When I hear this precious little voice
From the heavens above
I know that all the angels
Are showering him with love

For everyone that wants to hear
Their babies voice so innocent and sweet
Just close your eyes and begin to pray
And embrace them in your sleep.

(c) Angela Gibson All Rights Reserved

When You Don't Feel Thankful

I've focused recently on the need to have the right perspective and give thanks for what is good in your life instead of fixating on what needs to change.
However, after a pregnancy loss, it may be too hard to be thankful because you are caught up in grief.
As a christian, I felt I had to be thankful and joyful because the Bible says so and on my off days I felt guilty about not being able to maintain an attitude of gratitude. Then I came across 2 verses of Scripture that really gave me comfort and I want to share them with you.

• The LORD is close to the broken-hearted...those who are crushed in spirit (Psalm 34:18).
• The LORD says, "I, even I, am the one who comforts you" (Isaiah 51:12).

It's good to know that God is right there, close by and comforting, when you're feeling too down to "count your blessings".

Inspired by Psalm 102

This is a poem for all the women out there struggling. Sending Much Love.

SHE WEEPS, SHE PRAYS.

Hear her prayer O Lord

Her heart is stricken within her

Hear her cry O Lord

She has mingled her drink with tears

Hear her groans O Lord

She lies awake grieving.

Let it be said that You heard

Let it be written that You answered

Let it be known that You showed mercy.

Her time for favour has come

It's time for her morning to dawn.

Hello all

Well, it's been a while since I last posted anything, mainly because my home Internet is acting up plus I'm preparing for some medical board exams in addition to work, my research project and home life (multi-tasking!).

I just want to share something beautiful I read in a devotional called The Word for Today:

"The word for you today is, 'do not fear, for you will not be ashamed; neither be disgraced...you will forget the shame of your youth'. You can't go back and make things different...sometimes...we cling to certain things because we fear we'll never be able to replace them. No...you haven't seen your best days yet. There's more ahead of you than behind you."

I think we can all draw some comfort and inspiration from these words.

COMFORT

There’s a comfort that comes after a miscarriage when you hear of or read about another woman’s experience.

The comfort of knowing that we don’t think it was “just a pregnancy that wasn’t meant to be”.

The comfort of knowing that the ache in your heart isn’t abnormal: we’ve all felt it.

The comfort of knowing that you won’t always want to just stay in your pyjamas crying into your ice cream; you will get better.

The comfort of knowing that you are part of an amazing sisterhood: birthed in pain but surrounded with warmth and love.

Take comfort.